5 Birth Months Who Should Not Go Looking For Answers Right Now
Sometimes the search becomes more exhausting than the question. You reread, ask again, find another interpretation, and feel briefly satisfied before the doubt returns. For these five birth months, it may be time to set down a question that has taken up hours without bringing any more clarity.
March
March, if you have already asked someone what changed between you and received an evasive answer, the old messages may start to look like evidence. You search for the sentence where their warmth began to fade. Perhaps you can identify something you said, something you could explain differently, and make the ending less bewildering.
Without an honest answer from them, it’s easy to start blaming yourself. You can acknowledge a mistake you actually made without inventing one to fill the space where their explanation should be. For now, leave the messages where they are. You don’t have to figure out what they refused to explain before you can begin moving on.
June
June, you may already know what you want—and keep asking other people whether it’s okay to want it. You want to spend a weekend by yourself, start a creative project, or devote more time to an interest nobody close to you shares. Then you ask enough people what they think that the wish becomes difficult to hear beneath their responses. Someone worries you will be lonely. Someone thinks you should do something more useful. Their concerns may be worth considering, but they don’t get to decide how much this matters to you. Try saying what you want without asking for permission. Someone can wish you’d choose differently, and you can still choose it.
July
A new connection can become strangely crowded, July. There are the two of you, and then there is every possible interpretation of what happened between you. A lovely conversation becomes a collection of clues. You remember the pause before their goodbye more clearly than the thing they said that made you laugh.
You can ask what they are looking for. You can pay attention to whether their actions agree with their words. Those are useful ways of getting to know someone. One evening can’t tell you everything about where this is going. Let the next conversation happen before deciding what the first one meant. You’re still getting to know a person, and there’s more to discover than whether they like you back.
September
September, some questions survive because there is no way to settle them. Would you have been happier in the city you left? Would the life you had there have become easier if you had given it another year? You can picture that other life so clearly that you start comparing your real days with its best possible version. Yet you may be giving it all the benefits of staying while leaving out the reasons you needed to go. Revisit those reasons before putting your present life on trial again. Missing something tells you that it mattered. It cannot tell you what staying would have cost.
November
A vivid dream does not have to become an assignment, November. Perhaps you dreamed of crossing a bridge and woke with an unexpected feeling of relief. You look up the symbol, then another interpretation, then another. One promises a new beginning; another warns of separation. Soon you are troubled by what it might mean. Before you looked anything up, the dream left you feeling lighter. Write down what you remember and how it felt. You can leave its meaning open for now.