Ryanniel Masucol

A Letter To Myself During My Darkest Moments

Dear Self,

I see you. I feel you. You are hurt and that is okay. It is okay to feel your emotions. Never deny what you feel, because if you do, you will never heal. Acknowledge it and let it all out. I promise you will feel so much better because being painfully honest with yourself is unconditional self-love.

Life is full of surprises. Sometimes you go through certain things and think, “Why me?” but you are exactly where you are supposed to be. You are headed to somewhere incredible. I know it does not make any sense right now, but eventually you will figure out why things happened. I know you will get through this. I know you will come back even stronger than before. Hang in there.

“If you focus on the hurt, you will suffer. If you focus on the lesson, you will continue to grow.”

Acceptance and forgiveness will set you free. Holding onto anger, bitterness, and resentment will hinder your process of moving towards the life and love you truly deserve. These negative emotions are not worth sacrificing your joy. These will only weigh you down and hold you in place. Understand that you cannot always control what happens to you, but believe you are in control of your reactions and that is why you choose to accept it—you choose to move forward and you choose to forgive the people who hurt you. I admire you and I am so proud of you.

“Nothing was ever easy, but maybe that was the beauty of it.”

Starting over is never easy, but you see it as a good opportunity to focus on yourself, rediscover things you love, learn something new, and grow more as an individual. It is incredible that you always see the positive side in any situation after what you have been through. I love that you always find something to be grateful for. I admire that you always stand back up on your feet even how many times you fall down. I am so immensely proud of the person you have become. You show up every day, you keep fighting, and you keep going because you believe in yourself. You are inspiring. I admire you and your strength.

You loved and you lost. Now is the time to let go of what you cannot control and put yourself first. Now is the time for you to find your true self, your purpose and reach your goals because it will heal you, empower you, and restore you.

You are amazing. You are loved. You are enough. You are strong. You are beautiful. You are at peace. 

I love you.

Love,

Me