A Thank You Letter To The Ones Who Let Me Down This Year

Thank you for letting me down, because you gave me an answer to all my burning questions about you, your intentions, and your integrity. You showed me that I still have work to do on myself. You showed me the parts of me that needed to heal and the parts of me that needed to change. You showed me that I still trust the wrong people and I ignore the red flags when I want to keep someone around. You showed me that I still trust too quickly without truly understanding what someone wants from me, but more importantly, you showed me how people behave when someone is not important to them. 

Thank you for reminding me that when someone wants to do something, they will do it instead of coming up with excuses or trying so hard to be unavailable. When someone wants to talk to me, they will find a way; they will find a hundred reasons why. You showed me that someone can be a totally different person when they want something or when they value someone, all of which I didn’t see from you. Thank you for reminding me that people like you don’t deserve any more of my time and attention, because when you had them, you threw them away. 

Thank you for showing me how selfish and inconsiderate you can be. Thank you for failing to give me the reassurance and the security I needed from you, because I would have been the only one trying and the only one compromising. Thank you for giving me so little, because it’s easier to forget you. Thank you for choosing someone else—you reminded me how not to let someone like you tell me how good or bad I am or make me feel worthy or unworthy of something. 

Thank you for letting me down, because you brought me closer to the ones who lift me up, the ones who are always there, and the ones who always show me how much I matter to them. You made me choose myself again instead of running after you, and you allowed me to find in myself what you didn’t find in me. Thank you for making it so easy to erase you from my year and from my life. Thank you for the lessons, because I finally realized that you keep letting me down because I keep letting you. 

So just like I gave you that power, I can easily take it back and you’ll be left with nothing. Thank you for teaching me how to say goodbye to you, because people like you leave a sour taste in my mouth, and I don’t have room for any more bitterness in my life.