I Never Thought I’d Thank You For Letting Me Go

I never thought I’d say that. I never thought I’d see the good in your goodbye. But it all makes sense now. So thank you — very much.

Thank you for giving up on me. You taught me how to survive on my own. You forced me to find myself again without you. I went from questioning everything you hated and feeling like I wasn’t good enough to learning how to love all the parts that didn’t make sense to you and embrace who I am. I was too hard on myself that I forgot how to be soft, how to be kind, how to be human.

Thank you for lying. You taught me that no matter how honest and genuine one can be, people could still lie to their face. People will not reciprocate that kind of honesty if it’s not going to serve them well. You taught me that some people can fake whole relationships just to keep the person around. To keep that kind of attention they crave. To have someone stroke their ego when it’s bruised.

Thank you for putting yourself first. You pushed me to do the same. You forced me to prioritize myself and my life. You taught me to choose myself because choosing you left me with nothing but heartache and emptiness. Choosing you was the wrong choice. Choosing you made me give up on so many wonderful opportunities that I may never get back. Choosing you made me realize that I don’t want to be a second choice or an option or a placeholder. Thank you for not choosing me because you taught me never to let anyone define my worth again.

Thank you for not fighting for me the way I fought for you. You taught me that fighting for things that are not meant for me is nothing but a waste of time and energy. You taught me that trying to convince someone to love you will never work. You taught me that when it’s right, both hearts will move. It will be simple. It will be less complicated. You taught me that it’s impossible to change someone’s heart.

Thank you for letting me go because you gave me the chance to know exactly what I want and what kind of love I need. You made room for someone better to come along. You taught me the importance of self-love and how it protects me from people like you. Thank you for letting me go because you made me hold on to the only person I really need in my life — me.