If You Need to Let Go, Prepare for the 10/10 Portal Now
Before October 10 arrives, consider what you would be relieved to stop carrying. Perhaps there is a conversation you keep postponing because having it would make a change real. Perhaps you are still arranging your days around a possibility that gives you very little in return. If you have been looking toward the 10/10 portal as a chance to begin again, the days before it can help you decide what you are ready to leave behind.
Numerological interpretations of the 10/10 portal connect the number 10 with a completed cycle and a new beginning. This year, October 10 also falls during Venus retrograde in Scorpio, which began on October 3 and is associated in astrology with reviewing relationships and values. If that symbolism speaks to you, consider how much of your life still reflects what you want, and how much continues because changing it would be difficult to explain.
Be specific about what letting go would involve. You may say you want to release a relationship while continuing to keep every weekend available in case that person finally makes a plan. A plan that nobody has made still gets to decide what you do. Preparing for October 10 could begin with accepting an invitation you actually want, then keeping it. The sadness may come with you. You may check your phone and feel disappointed. Even so, you will have spent an evening somewhere you chose, with people who knew to expect you. That is a change you can participate in before your feelings have caught up.
There can be tenderness in admitting how long you have been waiting. You remember the reasons you were hopeful, and you may feel protective of the person you were when you first made room for this possibility. Be careful with the judgments you make about them now. They were working with what they understood then. Letting go today does not require calling all that hope foolish. It does require noticing what maintaining it is asking of you now, especially when the cost has become so familiar that you rarely count it.
Give yourself time to prepare the conversation, too. Write down what has become difficult and what you can honestly offer going forward. Read it again after the first rush of emotion has passed. You may discover that one sentence needs to be clearer, or that you have promised something you cannot sustain. If another person is involved, leave room to hear them. A date can help you take a concern seriously without requiring you to settle the whole relationship by then.
As you think about what to manifest, include something that needs your participation. Perhaps you want to return to a creative practice. You keep imagining the finished work, how proud you would feel to have made it, while the materials remain packed away. Before October 10, take them out. Spend enough time with them to find where you want to begin. The first attempt might be awkward, and you may discover you need to learn something before you can continue. Now your dream has a question you can pursue.
When October 10 comes, you can mark the portal by writing down what you are releasing and the choice that will support it. Keep the note somewhere you can return to. In the days afterward, there may be a familiar request, an uncertain invitation, a moment when postponing yourself would be easier. Read what you wrote before you answer.