Please, put your mental health before anything or anyone else. Please, do not tell yourself that anything or anyone is more important than your mental health. Please, be extra kind to your mind all of the time. Please, do not stop moving towards freedom. You will find freedom. You are finding freedom.
It is not about escaping your mind. It is not about feeling better right away. It is not about proving to other people that you are trying your best to feel better. You are trying your best to feel better and your recognition is the only recognition that matters. You do not have anything to prove to anyone. You do not need to rush your process of finding freedom. The thoughts that are holding your heart tight are just thoughts. They feel so powerful but they are not. They feel so in control but they are not. Your soul is in control.
You should always be the first person you run to–check in with yourself. When you need extra help, run to someone else. There should be no guilt attached to needing help. Nothing is more important than you being okay.
More than anything, you deserve to be okay. You deserve to wholeheartedly love yourself and your life. You deserve to break free from your past and the hurt it has held you in for too long. You deserve to find whole healing and full freedom from any darkness that tries to take your light. You deserve to finally find the peace your soul has been searching for. You deserve to see yourself as someone who is beautiful––you wouldn’t be here if you weren’t meant to be precisely the person you are. You deserve to be loved by someone who loves you with unconditional love–the kind of love you have always dreamed of.
I hope you never tell yourself that you are worth nothing because you are worth everything. Sometimes life is beautiful and then unimaginably difficult, but that doesn’t mean it won’t be beautiful again. You can’t wait until life doesn’t hurt anymore to choose to believe you deserve more. You can’t wait until you feel ready to start stepping towards your dreams. You deserve to find everything you’re looking to get out of this precious life. More than anything, I just hope you know that you deserve to be here, now. The world would never be the same without you.