Here’s To Believing In The Unbelievable

As I lay flat on the floor, swim in a playlist of ambient music, and wondrously gaze up to my blue LED-lighted ceiling, I can’t help but wonder if this will all pay off.

A part of me has faith that it will, but another part of me, which was born from a number of unfortunate events, struggles to not have a cynical stance. Am I really capable of living a life that is more comfortable than not? Am I someone that is capable of being a leader, for not only myself but also those I deeply care for? Am I deserving of good things, good experiences, and the luxuries of a healthy, abundant life? Deep down, I truly feel that I am, but periodically, I lose myself within an endless amount of possibilities.

Tomorrow isn’t promised, and neither are financially stable, peaceful, and stressless days, but what if I was able to believe in the unbelievable? What if it was never “seeing is believing,” but instead, “believing is seeing”? What if the only thing truly holding me back from the life I have always dreamed of was my willingness to believe in the magic of feeling a reality that’s not even here yet?

Perhaps I have to be somewhat out of my mind to believe that one day the life I once knew will completely turn around, but regardless, I still carry on towards the unknown. I have to. I owe that to myself and to those that look to me as a source of inspiration.

So, if I give up now I’ll never know what a life basked in stable love, abundance, and wealth will look like. If I give up now I won’t know what it’s like to finally break free of my limiting beliefs and traumas. If I give up now, what will that say to the people who have almost completely let go of their faith of hope and better days?

I’m not sure what will happen, but I don’t ever plan on finding out. I’ve come too far to only come so far. So here’s to not ever giving up. Here’s to believing in the unbelievable.