I Love You Like The Phases Of The Moon
In the dark of night
And the early hours of the morning
Where I find my bare self next to you
A sliver of hope
Travels through my mind
As you trace your fingers along my delicate and fragile body
I hope there is something more to this
I never thought I’d see the day
where I belong to someone else
And feel comfortable
As we evolve we grow closer
But my old habits make me cold
As I struggle to define the line between us
Wary of the dangers that lurk
And the possibility that you may be someone else
The past conflicts with the future
As I may be using my old thoughts against my own happiness
I question if you ever think about me
I go through withdrawals
About being with and without you
Because if this is love, it feels different
But I’m not sure yet
But I might not ever be sure
And if so
That is okay
The pleasure of the being and nothingness
Brings me new delight
As I see the world through different eyes
But I know this time
Who I am
And what I deserve
Yet still you choose not to be it all
And again it makes me wonder
If your motive is to toy with my emotions
I keep getting to my old feelings
And yet i know it’s wrong
Because this isn’t me anymore
And it’s not the way i feel with you
You tell me you love me
And I say it back
But i don’t know if i actually mean it
I want to
But it’s a dangerous game we are playing
And if love is what this is
I never thought I’d see the day
Where I was comfortable in the arms of something so different
but we can’t talk about our future
Because we will never know
You say you have a feeling
But that means nothing to me
Because I’ve been there before
And it’s not a nice place
To try and dig yourself out of
So please
Just be honest with me
And I’ll try give my all to you