Thank You For Being My Greatest Love Story

I have written so many things about so many people that doing it again seems a little insincere but not doing also seems unfair. You are my greatest love story and not immortalizing you with my writing would be a sin that I can’t afford to commit.

After being in a relationship that turned so toxic that I had to get out of it, I didn’t think love was in the books for me. I had given up all hope thinking that I’ll never find somebody who would want to be with me. All my life I’ve been told that I wasn’t good enough, that all I did was make mistakes and ruin things. I thought I could never make anybody happy, no matter how hard I tried. But then you came along and you thought I was fine.

I don’t want this to sound like a sob story. I want this to be about us, about the little things that you do for me. I want this to be reminiscent of that beautiful December that we spent together doing all the things that we’d never done before. That night when we got into a huge fight and realized that we couldn’t live without each other. And that morning when we saw the most breathtaking sunrise of lives, wrapped up in a blanket together.

I have no words for how I feel for you. Nothing I write does justice for my feelings. That overwhelming urge to leave everything behind and run away with you right now, how do I put that into words? What do I call it? Even when I don’t have anything to say, I just want to keep looking at your face forever because nothing brings me more peace than that.

It’s been a month since I last held you in my arms, the last time I looked into your eyes and told you how much I love you. Since that day, I’ve only been waiting to touch you and feel you again. To call the period painful would be an understatement. Every night when I have to go to bed without you and every morning when I wake up without you, I feel like I would rather stay asleep and dream of our days together when we didn’t have to worry about living in different parts of the country and missing each other every single minute of the day.

I can’t get enough of you and I don’t think I ever will. I like who I am with you. I’ve wanted to be this person for the longest time and you let me be that. With you, I can let my guard down and I know I will not be hurt and I will still be loved. You are an absolute gem and I love you so goddamn much you have no idea. You give me the kind of love that I’ve been looking for all my life and it scares me to death. What if my love isn’t enough for you?

Sometimes I wonder if everything I’ve ever done in life, every person I’ve ever been with, was only so that I could end up with you. Thank you for deciding that I was worthy of your love and thank you for giving it to me. Most importantly, thank you for texting me out of the blue one fine day for whatever reason because my life hasn’t been the same since then.