Kelly Peacock

The Poem Every Zodiac Sign Needs To Read If They’re Going Through A Breakup Right Now

Aries

I don’t know if I will ever forgive you
for not loving me in the way I could hold.
But to be honest,
I don’t know if I’ll ever forgive myself
for doing that too.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Taurus

As if I was supposed to, I held onto that innate ache
of losing you. I didn’t want to let go of my melancholy
because that meant I would be letting you go with it, and
I wasn’t ready for that yet, for a life without you.
But now I am.
I know I’m not meant to keep you any longer. I know I
have to release this thread, to cut the rose-colored string.
And so I do.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Gemini

In retrospect,
maybe I didn’t love you
as much as I thought I did.
Maybe I was elbows-deep in you
like a heavy sweetness
because I didn’t think
there was anything else out there for me.
But there is—
there are kinder hearts, tender
pleasure, deeper devotion,
and everything I’ve always wanted.
I cannot continue settling for anything less.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Cancer

It wasn’t until his withdrawal–and the echoing of it in my body–that I realized how crucial it is to make a home in my bones. How necessary it is to find solace, to not let myself shrink.

I can’t help but feel sad for myself though, knowing that someone’s leaving is what makes me finally come home to myself.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Leo

Maybe this is me finally understanding that sometimes love doesn’t happen for two people, no matter how badly you want it to. I am accepting the fact that sometimes the love you want isn’t the love you deserve or the love you need.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Virgo

It’s such a bitter way of living:
being merciful,
for fear of asking for your needs to be met.
Because the thing is, it is never too much.
The way they loved you just wasn’t enough.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Libra

There I was, starry-eyed, enamored with you.
I couldn’t even see how untouchable you really were,
with your hollowed-out eyes
and your outstretched hands,
waiting for something more worthwhile
to come into your orbit,
as if I wasn’t enough,
as if I wasn’t a heavenly body worth praising.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Scorpio

It is so goddamn powerful
to let yourself love and be loved again,
even after all the heartbreak
that made you feel unlovable.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Sagittarius

You will feel ashamed for letting yourself accept anything less than you deserved—but you have to forgive yourself. Forgive yourself for getting so lost in it, for abandoning yourself for as long as you did.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Capricorn

I have tucked away pieces of you
for safekeeping
and they will stay there
for as long as I let them.
For as long as I want them.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Aquarius

There’s no reason to surrender
to a closeness you’re uncertain about,
especially when you know–in your gut–
there is something so much greater
out there waiting for you.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces

Pisces

I want to know what it’s like
to choose myself instead.
I want to know how to quiet the guilt
and make love something I give myself
for once.

Kelly Peacock, Loving, Longing, And Other Liminal Spaces