Nataliya Vaitkevich

The Truth Is, Your Twenties Will Disappoint You

You know that feeling when youโ€™re in your late twenties and youโ€™ve got it all figured out? Yeah, me neither.

But what I do know is that I can finish an entire bottle of white wine on a Saturday evening all by myself. You should definitely try it! To tell you the truth, if youโ€™re reading this and youโ€™re in your early twenties, I so envy you. I wish I was better prepared for what was about to come. Nobody warned me. Nobody.

Enjoy the parties, the hangovers, and the wasted days, because whatโ€™s about to come will hit you like a brick in the face. Before you even know it, youโ€™ll be 28 years old, saying to yourself in the mirror that everything is going to be okay when deep down you have a hunch that itโ€™s actually not going to be even close to okay.

And spare me the usuals! Itโ€™s not that weโ€™re living in extraordinary times filled with uncertainty and instability. This is just the way life goes. These are the years of intense pressure and even more intense confusion. But still, I never expected it to be soโ€ฆ exhausting.

Whatโ€™s even worse, youโ€™ll probably find yourself in a high-power position by this age, being responsible for an entire team of people and at the same time not knowing what the heck youโ€™re doing. If that doesnโ€™t weaken your confidence, then I donโ€™t know what will.

Looking back, I never expected my life to turn out the way it did. Donโ€™t get me wrong, I am grateful and thankful for the good parts of it. Hard work really paid off. But at the same time, I find myself impatient and wary. I find myself thinking about all the ways in which my life could go wrong if Iโ€™m not careful enough right at this very moment. And the sad part is, I donโ€™t feel in control of my life. I really donโ€™t.

I have reached a point in my life in which I donโ€™t want to play games anymore. I want the truth. I want honesty. I want to just be able to hang out, have a few drinks, and talk about how much life sucks. But I am not confident that I can find a connection like that.

It seems like everybody is in too much of a rush, not even acknowledging the small and meaningful moments we share with each other.

I really hope I will get to see the other side of this story soon. I really do.ย And I truly hope youโ€™ll be there to meet me!