What Each Zodiac Needs To Read This Weekend
Aries
Maybe this is me finally understanding that sometimes love doesn’t happen for two people, no matter how badly you want it to. I am accepting the fact that sometimes the love you want isn’t the love you deserve or the love you need.
Maybe this is me grieving and finding my own closure. I am letting go of every moment I shared with you and tucking it away to become a distant memory. Maybe moving on is me trying to make sense of our togetherness and our parting and how sad it all was–till the very end.
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Taurus
It’s okay if I don’t forgive myself yet.
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Right now I’m still hurting, and that’s okay.
Self-forgiveness is a journey–
For now, I just need to meet myself where I’m at.
Gemini
This is me no longer
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allowing myself to be palpable,
fearing I take up too much space,
always anchoring my voice.
This is me believing that
I am so much more than someone to merely tolerate.
Cancer
It’s disappointing, really,
seeing it all for what it really was:
how I betrayed myself and my needs
in order to keep the peace,
to keep myself small enough
to fit in his pocket.
I won’t be a bother. I’ll just be here.I wanted to receive love so badly
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that I saw the crumbs he gave me as enough.
How unkind I was to myself,
letting this happen to me.
I know this isn’t something I can change,
but it is something I can forgive myself for.
Leo
If you keep allowing a person into your life
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who doesn’t properly fulfill your needs,
who doesn’t love with white-hot passion,
who doesn’t cherish you for all that you’re worth,
then this is not the person for you.
There’s no reason to surrender
to a closeness you’re uncertain about,
especially when you know–in your gut–
there is something so much greater
out there waiting for you.
Virgo
I know that I have finally let you go
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because I feel a delicate ease.
I feel the weight of
not being loved enough
lifted.
My shoulders have lowered,
my jaw unclenched.
I have let you go,
and finally, I can exhale.
Finally, I can breathe.
Libra
One day you’ll realize it: how, for so long, you’ve allowed yourself to be small. Graceful. A pleaser. You never took up too much space, never asked for your needs to be met, never let yourself step out of complacency. One day you’ll realize all of that, and it will be devastating, the way you broke your own heart. You’ll have ah ard time forgiving yourself for not respecting yourself enough to be loud, to be wanting, to be here.
One day everything will change. You’ll learn what your voice sounds like, what it feels like to take up space. Then, self-forgiveness will come–and it will come. You have to trust yourself enough to keep feeling. You have to trust yourself enough to keep healing.
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Scorpio
It’s such a bitter way of living:
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being merciful,
for fear of asking for your needs to be met.
Because the thing is, it is never too much.
The way they loved you just wasn’t enough.
Sagittarius
When I think about love,
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I think about selflessness.
To me, love has always been about giving.
But I see now how wrong this is,
how selfish that selflessness really was.
What I mean is:
how selfish of me
to give all my love and respect and grace
to someone else,
never leaving any of it for me.
Capricorn
It’s not easy to admit that
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you accepted crumbs and said it kept you full.
It’s not easy to admit that
you stuck to them out of fear.
It’s a gutted realization, but an important one–
you might feel starved,
but at least you’ll be free.
Aquarius
It is so goddamn powerful
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to let yourself love and be loved again,
even after all the heartbreak
that made you feel unlovable.
Pisces
To me, love has always been about sacrifice.
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I want to know what it’s like
to choose myself instead.
I want to know how to quiet the guilt
and make love something I give myself
for once.