Jansel Ferma

You Broke Our Promise, But That’s Okay

I won’t hold onto all the things you promised and broke, because while it hurts, I’m not going to let it get in the way of everything I have to give.

I’m not going to fixate and replay the situation in my head to think, “What if I had said this?” because I know from experience that if the universe has a plan, nobody can get in the way of it.

The truth is, I don’t even blame you. I have no feelings of anger towards you even though everything came to a halt fairly quickly. People experience life the way they’ve lived it—it’s all about perspective. Our time together was seen through two different lenses, and I’ve come to terms with that. It’s just the way it is. I do hope that you get to experience the pain of a broken promise of this magnitude though, not out of spite, but to see what it feels like on the other end of one. It’s important for someone to have a word and mean what they say, and that’s always been a trait that shows someone’s character and that’s important to me.

Regardless of what awaits both of us, I am content in moving on with the awareness that what is meant for me will find me, even if I’m an absolute mess at that time in my life. Even if I manage to push away a blessing because of circumstances in my control. If something is meant to happen, it will hover until I accept it as my fate. You fight for the things you love, no matter how heavy they feel. Sometimes promises have to be broken after a lot of inconsistencies between both parties. But when someone gives up with barely any resistance, there’s closure in knowing what’s meant for you wouldn’t have given up so easily.