Jansel Ferma

You Broke Our Promise, But That’s Okay

I wonโ€™t hold onto all the things you promised and broke, because while it hurts, Iโ€™m not going to let it get in the way of everything I have to give.

Iโ€™m not going to fixate and replay the situation in my head to think, โ€œWhat if I had said this?โ€ because I know from experience that if the universe has a plan, nobody can get in the way of it.

The truth is, I donโ€™t even blame you. I have no feelings of anger towards you even though everything came to a halt fairly quickly. People experience life the way theyโ€™ve lived itโ€”itโ€™s all about perspective. Our time together was seen through two different lenses, and Iโ€™ve come to terms with that. Itโ€™s just the way it is. I do hope that you get to experience the pain of a broken promise of this magnitude though, not out of spite, but to see what it feels like on the other end of one. Itโ€™s important for someone to have a word and mean what they say, and thatโ€™s always been a trait that shows someoneโ€™s character and thatโ€™s important to me.

Regardless of what awaits both of us, I am content in moving on with the awareness that what is meant for me will find me, even if Iโ€™m an absolute mess at that time in my life. Even if I manage to push away a blessing because of circumstances in my control. If something is meant to happen, it will hover until I accept it as my fate. You fight for the things you love, no matter how heavy they feel. Sometimes promises have to be broken after a lot of inconsistencies between both parties. But when someone gives up with barely any resistance, thereโ€™s closure in knowing whatโ€™s meant for you wouldnโ€™t have given up so easily.